I'm sorry guys I just have to rant right now. I'm feeling every sad emotion you could feel right now.

I'm a senior going into college and my main choice is a college in Florida.
I have the grades and i guess i have the 'talent' to be accepted, but my life here just sucks. My parents area bunch of liars and my mother is the most unsupportave parent anyone could have. Sooner or later I won't be afraid to tell her another reason i want t go all the way down to Florida is to get away from her.

I'm gonna be 18 before I even graduate from high school so I can make my own decisions. My stupid mother wants me to stay in Jersey and even cused my dad to cancel a meeting I had with a college in Pennsylvania. When my mom went out somewhere and my dad and i were alone I expressed to hm why i wanted to leave. he told me he would try everything he could to help me since I wanted to go so bad.

Now all of a sudden he doesn't want me to go because of money issues? And mom is all "you don't clean your room you don't cook you don't do blah blah blah you can't live on your own"
It's like she has no faith in me at all. The bitch beat me down in front of my friends because we were gonna go to New York on my own and she wanted to pull me back home like a dog on a damn leash and I pulled away because I can walk on my own. She wants to control every aspect of my life until I'm 18 and even wehn I'm 18 she's still gonna find ways to control me, watch.

I just want to get away from this family. It's exactly for this reason I get overly depressed and suicidal, especially because of my mom. I tell her things and she's all "I'ma strangle you" "I'ma hit you" "I'ma kill you" and she doesn't even care. She's not my mother she's a damn demon who doesn't deserve to live here. Lately I've done nothing but hate her with a passion. I want to go to my guidance counsler and tel her everything that's been going on but I know if I ever try to say one words all that's gonna happen is I'm gonna break down and cry like how I am now and get absolutly nothing out.

All I wanna do is live a happy life and it seems impossible right now. I don't winna die I just wanna be alone and live in peace for a while. If you read all of this I apologize if I've made your day bad or if I've worried you, adn I thank you for carinf so much.